Something I Don't Like Talking About?

I don't really like to talk about a lot of things, mostly because they are very personal. I don't like to talk about my parents who I don't live with. I don't like to talk about the fact that my sister is the only family member I have at this time. And I definately don't want to talk about how I had to break up with my last boyfriend, who was probably the best thing that I have ever had.

What I don't want to talk about, but have to because of this assignment, is the fact that I have lost my ability to fall in love or just love someone in general. I have no idea when it started. All I know, is that it happened sometime in Febuary or March of this year. I literately woke up and decided that I didn't care whether I was in a relationship, which is really weird for me. I hate being lonely and I hate not being in a relationship, but I just don't feel that if I was in one, that I would love the person at all. Yah, maybe like enough to tolerate and date for awhile, but I wouldn't feel any emotional connection to that person at all.

It's a scary feeling.

I don't know what is happening to me or what is wrong with my head these days, but that's just how I have been feeling. I found someone to relate to. He says he's going through the same thing, only, he has a reason for it. After him and his girlfriend, who he actually was in love with, broke up, he just shut down and stopped caring. I wish I had a reason. I feel like I'm insane, waiting for a doctor to lock me up somewhere. I have also noticed that I change my mind about certain things almost every hour. It's the reason why me and my last boyfriend broke up. I couldn't make up my mind about whether I wanted to be with him or not, and so I ended it. He is mad and confused as to why. He thinks I'm playing games, and it hurts. Like physically, it actually hurts. It hurts like a shock was sent straight through my heart at the very mention of his name, or seeing his face, or all of his things all over my bedroom floor. It hurts a lot and he feels he's the only one suffering. So, I don't know what to do. Should I break off contact with him or continue being his friend? I highly doubt we'd be anywhere as close as we were before...